abso-fucking-lutely

i went back to msia last month for 2 weeks, just to relax and meets my baby! only saw cho & nina + atih. thats all i could in such short time. it doesnt much at all but i have to admit that i just miss home. oh, had buka puasa with aliza, ninia, k ee, zack ad azera at little penang klcc. met faha and linda at starbucks klcc afterwards.

btw, review on jetstar airline melb to kl? terrible especially when i have to transit in sydney. so fucking tiring as it took almost 12 hours in ttal the whole trip whereas direct flight is just 7 hours.

accidently ’saw’ mrs cleaner from outside. i told bariah that she looks like camilla parker bowles through the glass panel. dave laughed like crazy, he doesnt think that she is. i was too shy to met her, and she refused to accept jd i bought from malaysia unless i give it to her. she definitely has a strategy.

so, dave is going to arrange something after he got home from horsham hunting after raya. im nervous so hopefully will stay at bariah’s then during raya.back to the meeting, im nervous about that too. i think i made the right decision not to see mrs cleaner yesterday, i want him to introduce his family to me properly, not by accident.

how freaking many birthday in august???!!!…

last week exactly was dave’s birthday. i wanted it to be so special considering the amount of work he has ben doing lately. he’s ben so tense with th kitchen renovation, i think he’s turning into a monster!

however, i love the fact that he lets me chose the interior design of the kitchen like the stove, tiles, ikea items, paint colour hopefully if he doesn’t mind pastel everywhere. im the epitome of what man hates about superficial chick, cream and pastel when he’s trying to get that country look in there. he even all fo the stainess steel tiles border,it does look very stylish and exactly the size that he wants. too bad thot i couldt get my beveled white tiles. it would be almost perfect. the floor has been nightmare!

so yeah, i brought him for a big steak nite at the rockpool. since he especially love big meat. they have som freaking good size. almost drive me crazy looking at the amount of meat they have there which can feed my entire big family for a dinner.

i on the other hand wanted the go there to see what’s the big fuss of the best voted australian restaurant - rockpool by neil perry. i guess for some reason they manage to capture the essence of oz barbarian-ness! they also have massive wine list, hundreds of pages with a page of non-alcoholic. i do love the selection of sauces thot, out of ordinary and yummy of course. and thanx for the complimentary birthday cupcake! but i do left the place with a hole in my purse.

ok, i have to admit that i miss my frens and family now.

eisya, i miss your ideas for havin fun. bariah, i wish you dont hav to be on holiday in malaysia or work in fremantle. but i know u’ll have fun. neha, riddhi, appi, em , kiet, kieta, andy, anthony and all the many2 people i love. i wish u guys happiness and hope our path cross again. i miss hanging out with you guys. you guys are my survivor kit. and my housemates, i should more effort to spend time with you guys.

my angels at home, yana, mira, irina, adam and nia tamara. i can’t miss to hug you guys!

wish me luck for this year ok?

i never seems to remember the movies ive watched …

just to remind myself not to watch/buy these tix again:

the other ay i wnt into kino dendy watching the dead girl again, not tooffend anyone but the ticketperson reckons maybe they are too insinificant to be remembered…

the dead girl . black book . romulus my father . comrades of dreams . snow cake . lives of others . hors de prix ~

damn so much more to watch this month. i dont even have time to watch movies on foxtel yet.

p/s i cant wait for the renovation to get ready ~

that’s how long i havent been writing anything in this. i promise myself i wont bore this blog if i dont have anything to say.

bariah’s bday: tea @ lentils as anything ~ so much bloody food and so nice the company. got bariah passes to fernwood since i cant afford better than that.

ive started swimming and exercise, probably once a week. but thurs ive sprained my foot and im limping everywhere, maybe i could still swim right? i shud i guess.

studying has been quite hectic. im trying really hard yang, i really dont want to screw this up. would u still like me if i’m not a doctor?

watch this really ***** stars movie LIVES OF OTHER

everybody should watch this very manly style touching movie.

last nite, we spent the nite watching my 1001 movies to watch before you die "SCHINDLER’S LIST"

it’s beautifully made, it’s about jews being saved by Schindler in poland WWII. shallow thinking - maybe he shouldn’t. there must be a reason why holocaust happened. deep thinking - there must be an even bigger reason why they are being saved. holocaust is not only for the jew to remember but for everyone person on earth. it just doesn’t stop there, rwanda in 1994 has the fastest genocide ever in history after holocaust.

the question is, what is going through the mind of these people who is launching genocide with means of racial hatred?

there is bigger picture of world history than ‘hang tuah, tok janggut, mat kilau’ to name a few. i guess since after merdeka, malaysian society was very consumed with nationalism that we didn’t foresee the bigger world scenario that causes us to be invaded in the first place. but bare in mind, in other to know others, we have to be strong about ourselves first.

WAR IS STILL HAPPENING !!

i just would like to attract your attention to this issue.

please visit the story behind all this war, you would find that many of them will bring you closer to yourself than you ever thought it is. some of them are your own brothers and sisters.

there is many way you can help.

after two very stressful weeks on call for dave, we retreat ourselves to jamieson for a quiet weekend in the bush. reached there midnight awaken to beautiful burst of  red, orange and yellow maple trees. specatcular view. archie and dougal running like mad as if they’ve never been set free on ground.

it’s supposed to be relaxing weekend. spend lots of time walking and enjoying the riverside. do plenty photography. check out bushfire place and gold mining pathway, they’re incredible. so bizarre that thyme (herbs) grows first in the rummage of burnt forest.

first morning, i manage to find ingredients to make rock-hard pancake. rummaging through the fridge for some spread i ended up finding plenty bottle items backdated 10 years. quite an achievement in food preservation.

walk to the island, archie too happy beyond doubt and dougal was ecstatic to swim in the meetings of jamieson and gouldburn river. i was very scared he’s going to get trapped in the current and wooshed away. archie is so notty and dragged me to the ground  into mud chasing after the little spotty next door while dave catching dougal escaped from the lead.

had dinner at jamieson brewery and breakfast at the cafe which cost a fortune considering it should be local business.

apart from that, ive been going out plenty of times with bariah, shopping mostly. finding bariah’s birthday venue. gave out idea for "lentil as anything".

check out "lentil as anything" with bariah and fahmi. it’s the only place in melbourne i know of that allow you to put in donation money for what you think of the food value. the owner was named victorian australian of the year for his innovative and charitable restaurant idea. we had 4 mains, 5 slices cake, coffee and we put in $60. pretty generous but i was very satisfied with the food despite that they are all vegetarian.

rent out plenty of movies past weeks: osama, child star dicki robert, once were warriors, melinda&melinda, mostly martha.

cinema: becoming jane, perfect stranger

lost my laptop+sthetescope+robbin’s pathology at officework clayton. what expensive bag that is, stupid thief!

truely going to miss you girl, eisya!

i have so much good fun with eisya, i dont know if i can find such a kool friend again. although i very much hope that she would come back to melbourne, i do hope that she got to study in europe.

after FINA, she is so into sports management. i hope she do get that as well. basically i just wish the best of her.

i don’t know she is leaving tonite, i thought she said it’s gonna be weekend on sunday. luckily i turn on the mobile finally. i was there just on time to send her off a few minutes.

thanx to tg for sending me to city and dave to pick me up where she left me. i hope tg is safely home in my crappy car.

18.04.07 lost laptop, sthetescope, robbins pathology etc

im feeling very2 sick

eisya is going home very2 soon

i lost all my notes, pictures and whatever music in that laptop. im pretty lost without my laptop considering that im very mobile, i need that thing in handy at all times. my car causing me trouble again. wish i would have enough money to buy a better one soon.

paintball was awesome! bendigo is really pretty!

thanx non for organizing the whole games for easter. definitely a fun way to start my easter holiday!

i dont know why do we have to echuca and drive for 3 hours when we can just simply play in huntingdale. i guess "its the journey that matters" really has a meaning behind it.  im not complaining since i dont drive anyway but i waking up at 5am on sunday is pretty nightmare you know.

i was shot 5 times: neck, tummy (by dave after end whistle which makes me wanna kick him at you know where), then on my right cheekbone which gives pretty nice capilarry bruises, then on left arm( i think by my own team considering the depth of the bruise must be someone pretty near to me) and last but not least on my elbow which hurts pretty bad but leave no bruises.

after echuca, driop by at bendigo. i was so tired i almost got a room there. lucky dave disagree and we just slept on the grass at the garden. had dinner at no 1 venue in bendigo (the bridge restaurant & bar) the food was simple but amazing. exactly what i needed at that time. i have to plan proper visit next time. so many things to do.

on monday, shopping with bariah at chapel st. bought 2 bags at country road. so expensive but so nice as well. then had 3 course meal. tempura and chilli mussels for entree. tempura udon for meal at this japanese restaurant. end the meal with beautiful $15.00 tiramisu which is more expensive than my main meal. its a very nice small italian ‘caffe e cucino’.

drop by at cho’s house in south yarra and my house in clayton before sending bariah to frankston. watch ‘becoming jane’ at karingal star cinema. the story was a depressing movie to end such a beautiful easter monday. review will follow next time.

as for today, cleaning disaster house and soon going to city to grab some stuff. please remind me not to spend so much. dave gave 100 for groceries, just make sure i dont spend it on a pair of shoes!

thanx my ayang again for the tix.

acts for day 1 : gnarls barkley, the raptures, groove armada, pet shop boys

i think all of them perform really well and i like having seats in front of the stage considering the amount of people coming and party there. it was at the sydney myer bowl, open stage and glad it was a beautiful warm night.

gnarls barkley have school of rock theme, awesome performance with strings and kool band.

i missed the rapture cause we were too busy checking out merchandise and dave needs his evil drinks from jeigermeister booth. the queue was so long anyway.

groove armada was freaking good with awesome line of guest and very interesting backdrops. i like a lot of their songs apparently. haha, glad i was there.

pet shop boys is unexpectedly gay. minimalist concept with techno, rainbow colours and flowers. dave was tortured with the style of songs played. i actually enjoy watching all the queur people enjoying the concert. they have break dancers and end the concert with a really enjoyable ‘go west’

gave dave gnarls barkley tshirt for being awesome man!

been out with bariah a lot watch movies: babel, king of scotland and today 300.

happy easter and enjoy easter egg reasonably.

i was being horrible to dave this morning and sms his friend in macao very gay messages. happy easter yang!

i miss my baby in msia: yana, mira, irina, adam & tamara!

bump into laurie the other day in ikea, i have very weird history with him. he’s still his old self that i hate with all my heart. no good stuff coming from knowing except that he started a new phase of my life.

arthur caled as well surprisingly last thursday which made me so happy and so smiley. he’s the kind of person that you don’t want to be with but his presence feels very good, really miss his romantic nature. was reminded of him when saw lara fabian on you tube.

hang out with eisya after her fina volunteer with many hot swimmers. lepak st kilda at vibe

hope to have good holiday

sad but true, we are still who we are…

sometimes it’s too comfortable, it’s getting a little bit uncomfortable

should i say thanx for being the wonderful himself

or it just go without saying, do i feel unappreciated or do i want the appreciation to be expressed?

i dont need flowers, diamonds or i love you….

i want and i need blessing and forever peace of mind

if you’re ‘the one’ for me than show it to me

i need to know, sometimes it’s hard to believe when you don’t know

"if you feel like you’ve settled down, you haven’t done enough"

* yaya dearest, it’s all a matter of choice. we are spoilt for choice but at the end of the day it’s what you want that matters. definition of settling down itself is broad the context might be misleading. i on the other hand just want to settle down, which never happens. it frustates me and this quote is my positive reinforcement. perhaps, there is more for me. or maybe i’m just too greedy. do i agree? i’m terrible at deciding. maybe i do *